dear future wife.

watched a video called "worthy"

there was this one part when the guy says...

"and when I'm ready, when God tells me, I'm going to sweep you off your feet and chase you with all my heart.

... but I'm not ready."

I somewhat feel like this and I feel like this is the reason why God gave me another two years or so to pray for a specific person.

I feel like I wouldn't be ready.

and I don't want this relationship to start without me being ready.

so I pray. waiting. diligently.

like Jacob, blinded by love, had to wait 14 years for his wife Rachel.

my future wife is worth praying for at least two years.

no, she's worth much more.

so if God tells me to wait more, I will do so gladly.

and it will be joyful to do so because I will be blinded by love.

"Jacob was in love with Rachel... So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her."

Genesis 29: 18 ~ 20