난 요즘..

자다가도 벌떡벌떡 일어난다.

아픈데도 벌떡벌떡 일어난다.

문자가 왔나? 카톡 메세지가 왔나?

혹시라도 miss 하지않을까...

... 미쳤나...?

-_-

문자로만으로도 행복해지는것...!

♡

Do Not Worry

"Worry is a warning light that God is not first in my life...

If I'm unmarried, and I worry about dating, it means God is not first in my dating life."

Who am I going to live for?

Who is my number one priority?

Is it her or is it God?

YOU NEED TO GET YOUR HEAD STRAIGHT!

"In worrying about tomorrow's problem, you miss today's blessings."

"You either worry or worship; you either panic or pray."

Let go of your worries!

"Don't worry - worship! Don't panic - pray!"

"God is God, I am not.

God is God, I am not."

Never try to be God by worrying about things in my life.

Put God before her, and see where He takes you.

Put God before her and see how much He honors your heart.

PUT GOD BEFORE HER AND DO NOT MAKE HER AS YOUR PRIORITY!!

Don't worry, David, He's got your back.

(;

Proverbs 31

"a wife of noble character who can find?

She is worth far more than rubies.

Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing in value.

She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life...

She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy...

She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.

She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.

Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:

'Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.'

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate."

my wife WILL be a woman who fears the LORD!

she will be a woman who carries ALL THAT characteristics!

God... answer me please.

나얼 GQ 인터뷰中...

"GQ:  팀으로 활동하지만 나얼 하나로도 뚜렷하다.

음악적 기대는 어떻게 다른가?

나얼: 기대가 다르진 않다.

일단 팀이 좋다.

혼자 하면 외롭고, 자신도 없고, 무대를 즐기지도 못한다.

그래서 팀이 좋다.

혼자 한다는 편안함이 있다 해도 팀이 더 매력적이다.

음악을 시작한 것도 중창단 때문이다.

화음 때문에, 함께 화음을 맞추는게 너무 좋아서.

GQ: 화음이야 말로 수학 아닌가?

나얼: 완전히 수학이다. 혹시 교회 다니나?

GQ: 안다닌다.

나얼: 삼위일체에 대해 아나? 성부, 성자, 성령 세 분이 각각 다르지만, 다시 한분이란 얘기다.

그게 음악에도 있고 미술에도 있다.

기본 삼화음이 삼위일체 하나님이다.

도미솔, 이걸 한번에 눌렀을때 하나의 화음인데, 도미솔은 각각 다르다.

기막힌 발견이다.

미술에 대해서도 말해볼까?

삼원색이 있다.

빛의 삼원색이 있고 색의 삼원색이 있다.

빛의 삼원색은 빵강, 노랑, 초록인데 합치면 흰색 광이 된다.

근데 색의 삼원색은 합치면 검은 색이 된다.

무슨 얘기냐하면...

색의 삼원색은 땅에 속한 것이고, 빛은 하늘이기 때문에, 내 생각인데, 빛은 하나님이고 생명이다.

세 가지 색을 합쳤더니 흰색 광이 되는거다.

하나님 자체가 되는거다.

근데 땅의 것들은 하나님의 형상을 닮았지만 서로 섞으니까 검어졌다.

색은 섞을수록 더러워지고, 빛은 밝아진다.

여기서 너무 놀랐다.

하나님이 이걸 숨겨 놓으셨구나.. 숨겨 놓은게 너무 많다.

사람들이 이제야 하나씩 발견한다.

GQ: 종교적인걸 떠나서, 대중 음악가로부터 듣기엔 불편한 얘길수도 있다.

편협할수도 있고...

나얼: 전혀 그렇지 않다.

비밀이라서 그런거다.

똑같은 얘기를 해도 이 사람은 믿고, 이 사람은 믿지 않는다.

그게 비밀이다.

사람은 어떻게 할 수 없는 것이다.

GQ: 예전에 가수 이미자 선생님이 이런 말을 했다.

"예술세계에서는 종교를 말해서는 안된다고 생각한다.

예술은 인간의 희노애락에 정직할 뿐이다.

'하느님 맙소다' 할때의 자연스러운 하느님 이상을 말하지 않겠다."

당신에겐 어떤가?

나얼: 개념의 차이다.

사람의 입장에선 그게 인본주의지만, 사람은 피조물이기 때문에 하나님 입장에서 생각해야한다.

내가 그거 따질게 아니라는 얘기다.

내가 음악을 하는 목적은 나를 높이기 위해서가 아니고, 오로지 하나님을 위해서 하는거다.

내가 찬송가를 부르는 건 너무 당연한 거다.

복음은 전해야 되는 것이다.

그게 내 목표다.

다른것은 얘기할 가치가 없다."

나도... 이렇게 얘기할수 있을까...?

복음이 언제 어디서든 중심이 될수 있는 믿음이 나에게도 필요한 것 같다.

나얼님 좀 짱인듯...;;;

'I WILL!"

Watched the movie "Courageous."

Got me thinking a lot in terms of future.

Being a man of God, a good husband, and a good father...

Am I walking the right path to becoming a man of God?

Do I do things that are pleasing the LORD?

Will I be a good husband to my wife?

Will I make her happy?

Will we be able to honor God in our relationship?

Will I be a good father to my children?

Will I be able to spend time with them in spite all the busy life?

Will I be able to teach them what it means to grow up as man/woman of God?

Will I be courageous to make on the challenge that is laid in front of my feet and walk in faith?

Will I be able to carry my family into the hands of the LORD and fight the good fight?

I would love to.

I will pray early on for my family and for myself...

that we will be a family that fears the LORD who abides in His divine Plan and Will.

I WILL...!!

모르는 사람처럼...

이젠, 봐도 모르는 사람처럼...

본것도 못 본것 처럼...
들은것도 못 들은것 처럼...

쓸데없이 참견하지 않으려고...

그냥 혼자 해보려고...

... 2년 남았다...

Remembering....

10 years... already.

We remember.. the tears, the broken hearts, and so much more...

not my day....

wayyyyy too many things happened...

today started off badly...

it was getting better, but ended badly again...

... one of those days...

at least it's over now...

Moving on...

From one school to another..

From one environment to another...

From one place to another...

이때만 되면 sentimental 해지는게 많은 듯 하다.

학교 시작하는거 때문에 걱정되는 것도 많은 것 같고..

하아... 이번년도는 잘 지낼수 있을까...?

싸움

my plan vs His Plan

my will vs His Will

my way vs His Way

me vs God

I lose no matter how I put it but I always try so hard to win.

Life happens in God's term, not in my term.

Believe it, obey it, and follow it.

Christians...

Christians are not people who are on top of the food chain.

We are like beggars.

EVERYONE is a beggar.

We do not provide food for the other beggars, but instead..

We tell the other beggars where the good food is.

We are sinners.

EVERYONE is a sinner.

We do not forgive sins for other sinners, but instead..

We tell the other sinners where they can find true forgiveness and love.

오직예수

Only in Jesus Christ...

난 요즘....

도대체 무슨 생각을 하면서 살고 있는걸까...?

진짜 별 생각 안하면서 지내는 듯 하다.

나태해진걸까?

만사 귀찮아 진걸까?

.... 뭐지...????

사랑으로...

내가 살아가는 동안에 할일이 또 하나 있지

바람부는 벌판에 서 있어도 나는 외롭지 않아

그러나 솔잎 하나 떨어지면 눈물따라 흐르고

우리 타는 가슴 가슴마다 햇살은 다시 떠오르네

아, 영원히 변치 않을 우리들의 사랑으로

어두운 곳에 손을 내밀어 밝혀 주리라

Immanuel...

... God with us...

more than enough... <3

Turn your eyes upon Jesus...

Look full in His wonderful face

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim

In the light of His glory and grace...

부담주지 말자...

자기 이기심만 채우려고

남에게 폐 끼치고 귀찮게 하고 그러는건

내가 제일 싫어하는 짓인데...

제일 싫어하는 짓인데.......

... 내가 너한테 그러고 있네...

미안하다. 부담 주지 않을게...

자제할게...

몸이 예전 같지 않군...

옛날에는 아프면 하루 아프고 말고 그랬는데...

하루 아팠다 괜찮다가 또 아프고 하네...

늙었나...? ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

... 보고싶다...

아프니까 더...

아ㅏㅏ....

큰일이다...

자꾸 생각나서...

잠도 오지 않을 지경이다...

... 큰일났다....

The measure of a man...

The measure of a man is not the measure of his success.

The measure of a man is not the measure of his physicality.

The measure of a man is not the measure of his pride.

but....

The measure of a man is the measure of his heart.

The measure of a man is the measure of his love.

사랑을 줄수있는 남자가 되자.

... to have a bigger heart...

IHOP experience...

오늘 처음으로 "IHOP이 무엇인가"를 경험했다.

이것저것... 뭐랄까...

내가 가장 고민하고 내 머릿속에있는 모든 고민들이...

"해결" 이라기 보단 좀 더 encouraged 된것같다고 해야할까나..?

어쨌든! 머릿속이 후련하다!

오늘 나에게 해준 여러가지 이야기:

1. 자신감을 갖자. 사람들 눈치보지 말고 당당하게!

2. 그냥 아무 친구나 사귀는게 아니라 다윗과 요나단같이 서로를 깊이 사랑할수 있는 그런 친구를 찾아라.

3. 너는 worshiper이다. 하나님께서는 너 혼자 solitude로 찬양을 할때 가장 기뻐하신다.

4. 하나님께서는 네가 무엇인가 할것이라고 그렇게 기대하고 계신다. 참고 견뎌내라.

5. 끈기 있게 모든걸 헤쳐나가라.

6. 지금 clear 하진 않지만 하나님께선 너를 어디론가 이끄실것이다.

7. 빌립보서 4:13

8. 여호수와 1장

이 외에도 너무 많은 말씀들을 해 주셨지만 진짜 기억에 남는건 이것뿐...

아, 내가 진짜 요즘 들어 고민하고 있는 future wife기도도...

말도 안했는데 다 알고 해주셨다.

어찌됐건! 마음은 굉장히 후련해 지고 정말 많이 encouraged 된것 같다.

띵똥!

"나 독고진이야~" ㅋㅋㅋ

요즘 드라마에 푹 빠져 산다.

가끔씩은... 이렇게 감정적으로 흔들어주는것도...

괜찮겠지...?

그나저나...

짝사랑은 독이라서 죽을까...?

Philippians 4:4

"Rejoice in the LORD always. I will say it again: Rejoice!"

"주 안에서 항상 기뻐하라 내가 다시 말하노니 기뻐하라"

-빌립보서 4:4

wherever I am, whatever situation I'm in... let's rejoice!

... 그래야 조성민 같지...

^^

아메리카노~

요즘 머리에 stuck 되어 있는 노래다...

머리속에서 떠나갈 생각을 안해서...

노래를 다운받고 계속 계속 들어봤지만...

그래도 또나질 않아서...

기타로 마스터 해버렸다...

ㅎㄷㄷ

아메리카노 따위... 훗. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

난 부활에 있어서는 프로다

... 나 자신을 죽여도 죽여도...

보면 또 살아나 있네...

같은 죄를 짓고 짓고 또 짓고 있네...

바울처럼 매일매일 나 자신을 십자가에 못박아야 한다...!

I need to crucify myself to the cross everyday...!

위험할정도로...

... 행복하다...

계속 계속 이 상황 이대로...

그 사람과 이야기 하고, 마주보고, 밥먹고, 이것저것 하고...

이대로... 꿈만같은 지금처럼만...

"꿈만 같이 좋다" 라는 말을 느끼는 요즘...

위험할 정도로 내 감정에 휘말리고 있지는 않은지...

걱정이 된다...

내가 생각을 너무 많이 하고 있는건지...

기도를 더 열심히 해야할것 같다.

지혜를 달라고.

answer을 달라고.

맞는 timing을 달라고.

돌아오는길...

낙심했나보다...

쓸데없이...

1번, 10번, 100번, 1000번, 10000번...

더 기도해보자...

낙심하지 말고.

아깝잖어? 그냥 포기해버리면?

미친듯이 기도해보자 어디까지 가나.

see where God leads me

oh google...

why must you do this during finals week...? ):

http://goo.gl/doodle/vTMe

my tribute for Les Paul...

John 14:12~14

"I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things that these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."

One of the greatest promises Jesus gave to us.

... so, the question is...

Am I going to accept this promise and trust in God?

or am i going to forget about this promise and try to do things on my own?

What's your response?

failed...

as a friend

as a role model

as a father figure

as a soonjang

... i had no idea...

it's my fault...

i'm sorry

Begging...

If it's not according to Your plan, shut the door on me completely.

But if it is for Your will, and for Your Kingdom...

If this will bring You glory, not me...

then leave the door opened.

You don't need to leave the door wide opened.

Just a little creek.

So that I'll know, even if it's hard, that you left it opened.

But only if it will bring YOU glory

choice...

훗날, 훗날에 나는 어디선가 한숨을 쉬며 이야기할 것입니다.

숲속에 두 갈래 길이 있었다고.

나는 사람이 적게 간 길을 택하였다고.

그리고 그것 때문에 모든 것이 달라졌다고

-Robert Frost-

가지 않은 길 中

어쩌면 모든 것이 달라졌을 수도...

어쩌면 공든 탑이 무너져 버릴 수도...

안하길...

참... 잘했다...

좋은 기회라 생각 했지만...

가슴 아프지만...

더 이상의 burden을 주기는 싫었다...

안하길 참 잘했다...

가족

감사하다.

과분한 가족이 있어서.

너무나 감당하기 힘든만큼 킹왕짱 가족이 있어서.

감사하고 또 감사하다.

행복하다.

내가 아무리 많이 실수하고 넘어져도 항상 내편이 되어주는 가족이 있어서

난 정말 행복하다.

Thank you, God.

♥

still searching...

"Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with Him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give us everything of Himself to us. Love like that. Don't allow love to turn into lust, setting off a downhill slide into sexual promiscuity, filthy practices, or bullying greed."

-Ephesians 5:2~3 (The Message version)

How do I love?

Do I love like Christ?

Does my love turn into lust?

again and again, I need to go back to this question.....

... How do I love...?

Spirit Touch Your Church

Lord, we need Your grace and mercy

We need to pray like never before

We need the power of Your Holy Spirit

To open heaven's door

Spirit touch Your church

Stir the hearts of men

Revive us, Lord

With Your passion once again

I want to care for others

Like Jesus cares for me

Let Your rain fall upon me

Let Your rain fall upon me

Spirit touch MY church...!

Revive ME, Lord, with Your Passion once again!

"How has God revealed Himself to me this past week?"

"In the midst of my crazy life, I think I need to just stop and listen to God's whispers."

Something I found on my old friend's blog.

It's so true.

If I don't stop and listen to God, then I can never know how God has revealed Himself to me.

So stop what you're doing and listen to Him.

Stop asking Him and listen to Him.

LISTEN to what God has to say to you, David.

just simply.... listen.

Old Hymn...

What a friend we have in Jesus,

All our sins and griefs to bear!

What a privilege to carry

Everything to God in prayer!

Oh, what peace we often forfeit,

Oh, what needless pain we bear,

All because we do not carry

Everything to God in prayer!

Have we trials and temptations?

Is there trouble anywhere?

We should never be discouraged-

take it to the Lord in prayer.

Can we find a friend so faithful,

Who will all our sorrows share?

Jesus knows our every weakness;

Take it to the Lord in prayer

taking everything to the Lord in prayer...

to our best friend, who knows everything, Jesus Christ

excitement...

God's been helping me to search deeper...

and every time I search deeper and deeper,

I find joy in it.

No, I wouldn't say I found that joy, but...

I've been getting a little taste of what the Joy of the Lord is all about.

And every time I get to taste a little bit of that Joy,

I want more.

I am excited for more

pause...

God told me...

"Who do you think you're trying to love?"

and He was right.

It's almost been a year now, but this is where I hit the pause button to pray for her.

I still have crazy feelings for her,

My heart skips a beat when I see her

I feel them butterflies in my stomach when I talk to her...

But praying without even knowing what LOVE is, that's dangerous.

It could be simply just out of my flesh desires.

So I press the button to pause, until I find God and restore my love for Him once again.

Because loving something else while not loving God can be very....

idolizing.

Confession...

For the past week, I have been struggling with people in general.

No, it had absolutely nothing to do with the people, but everything to do with my heart.

I started to see people as a burden.

Annoyance, really, rather than burden, and didn't want to do anything to do with them.

So I hid myself. Away from people, for 24 hours.

I thought that did the trick, but it didn't.

Today, at open chapel, I felt it coming back to me.

I was seeing people laughing, having fun, and thought to myself

"Why are they so happy? Where do their source of joy come from?"

I was bitter. I was so bitter to the point where I wanted to get out from the chapel room and just go home.

Run away, to isolate myself from people again.

Maybe this time for 48 hours, maybe for the whole week. Who knows?

I was thinking about leaving as soon as praise was over, but before the message was over, God spoke to me.

"David, do not seek love in your life without falling in love with Me first.

Why do you want to love others when you don't even love ME?"

I was confused.

"But, I love You, God," I told him.

"No, you don't" was the given response from Him.

Then it hit me; do I REALLY love him?

are my source of joy, hope, comfort from God or from people?

God told me "fall in love with Me."

After chewing on what God revealed to me, I realized my love for God has grown cold.

It might have even disappeared.

So what about all the things that I did? Being a SJ, serving in praise team, serving in DPD?

Did I not do it out of my love for God?

I thought I did.

You see, all the things that I've done were things that pleased myself.

To fulfill my own satisfaction, not to please God.

Then what DO I have to do in order to fall in love with Him?

This was the question that I had to rethink over and over again.

How in the world do I fall back in love with God?

What must I do in order to fall back in love with God?

Oh, I know, I should read the Word, pray, QT, praise, worship, etc...

I was simply listing things on top of my head, and while sharing with my roommate Eric, I realized that all those practical things can be obligations.

You see, when we fall in love with someone, we don't call them or spend time with them out of obligation.

We don't do those things to show them that we love them, but we do it simply out of love.

Same thing with God; those practical things that I've listed earlier, I was afraid I would do them out of obligation.

Then Eric shared something that opened my eyes.

In order to love someone, we need to get to know that person.

We don't fall in love with someone without knowing that person.

We go on date, spend time together, get to know that person, and then, slowly, fall in love.

In order to get to know God, we need to find Him.

So, where can I find Him? In the Word.

Wait... Am I contrasting myself?

Didn't I just say that reading the Word can be something I would do out of obligation?

That's the tricky part. You can think of it this way.

You reading the Word to prove to God that you love Him vs You reading the Word in an excitement of knowing Him.

Not so contradicting anymore eh?

Going deeper, reading the Word to get to know God has everything to do with humility.

It shows that I am denying myself and my ideas that I have of God and restarting to get to know him even more deeper.

In the Bible, it says "... the Word was God." (John 1:1)

Falling in love with God has much to do with falling in love with His Word.

This was a rather long entry (probably the longest one I've ever posted or will ever post), but this revelation that has given to me today was far more than what I just simply posted here.

I hope in the next however long amount of time I take in order for me to fall in love with God, that I would get to be known by God.

"it's not going to be a quick fix" but I will keep sanctify myself in order to fall in love with Him.

"But whoever loves God is known by God."

-1 Corinthians 8:3

sometimes i wish...

sometimes... very rarely...

i wish i wasn't a people oriented person...

why is it so hard to get off from fb...!?!?! ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

Realization...

‎"Doing God's will involves denying our own agenda.

The God who orchestrated Jesus' crucifixion is orchestrating yours right now."

- M. Bickle

Am I denying my own agenda?

Do I live my life to please God?

Am I giving God enough room to orchestrate my life?

Am I letting the crucifixion to take place in my life?

Who's orchestrating my life right now?

is it me or is it Jesus Christ?

... if Jesus were to live my life for one day, how would he live it?

... What Would Jesus Do...?

이 멍충아...

입을 꿰메버린던지 해야지...

말수 좀 줄이자 조성민...!!!

04092011

"하나님 뒀다 어따 써 먹을래?"

-김동호 목사님-

patience...

is what God's been teaching me for the past school year.

He is still teaching me to be patient to this day...

"be patient when you are waiting for a result..."

"be patient when you are praying..."

"be patient when you are talking to someone..."

"be patient in everything...."

patience david...

answer will come.

what you're waiting for will come to you...

"The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him."

-Lamentations 3:25

화가날때...

화가 날 때 가장 좋지 않은 것은 그 화에 휩쓸리는 것입니다.

화에 휩쓸려 자신을 잃고, 이성을 잃고, 상황에 적절하지 않게,
자신에게도 유익하지 않고, 상대방에게도 유익하지 않게 행동하는 것입니다.

-전용석

딱 나다.

화를 많이 내지는 않지만 한번 냈다하면 불 같이 내는 성격이라...

조심하고 또 조심해야 한다.

또 한번 화가 나면 내가 무슨 말을 하는지 조차 모르기 때문에..

내 화에 내가 휩쓸리지 않도록 조심, 또 조심해야겠다.

화가 나서 이런 post를 하는게 아니라...

할거 없이 여기 저기 돌아다니다가 재미있는 사진을 봐서...

갑자기 내가 화를 어떤식으로 내는지, 어떤게 위험한지를 알고싶어서...

(응? 뭔말이야 이건..?)

그래서 blog 했다고 해야하나...?

뭐 anyways, 그렇다.

"내가 저 사람한테 소리지르고 짜증내면... 행복해질까...? 그럴까...?"

patience david...

April Fools Day

More remembered to me as my brother's birthday.

Although it's a day where people fool one another,

I just want to simply congratulate him on his birthday.

no lie. seriously. (:

happy birthday!

... and Google, you crack me up...

HAHAHA who thought of this?!?! LOL

emo...?

요즘들어 다시 한번 감정에 흔들리는게 느껴진다.

비가 와서 그런지 이런 저런 생각이 많아 지고...

왠지 moody 하게 되는거 같다.

뭐야 emo 도 아니고... 사춘기도 아닌게.

다 큰 녀석이 이러면 안되지...!

정신 차려!

오랫만에...

정말 오랫만에 공원을 걸었다.

걷는 내내 "왜 진작 이 좋은걸 하지 않았을까?" 하는 생각을 하면서 걸었다.

또 함께 할수 있는 사람이 있어서 더 행복했었던것 같다.

하나님과의 fellowship도 비슷한것 같다.

fellowship이 점점 없어지면 없어질수록 그때는 모르지만...

다시 fellowship이 회복이 되고 하나님과 함께 동행하면...

"왜 진작 이 좋은걸 하지 않았을까?" 라는 생각을 하게된다.

그리고 또 동행을 함께 할수있는 형제,자매들이 있다는 것은 무엇보다 더 나를 encourage 하고 행복하게 만드는 일이 아닌가 싶다.

In Christ Alone

I place my trust, and find my glory in the power of the cross

in every victory, let it be said of me

my source of strength

my source of hope

is Christ alone

God I give all my situations - past, present, and future - to you for yours to take.

In Christ alone, may I find everything I need to be content

03/13/2011 GMC Sunday Service

"The Pentecost was reversal of God's punishment at the Tower of Babel.

Tower of Babel caused people to be separated with different language.

At the Pentecost, with the power of the Holy Spirit, the disciples started talking in tongues, in different languages, which brought people together.

Tower of Babel caused the people to scatter, but the Pentecost caused different people to come together and be centered around the Gospel."

-Pastor Dae Hoon

03/11/2011 Gethsemane

" 'Sin is Broken' does not mean that sin itself disappeared; it means our old selves that were in bondage to the sin has broken the chain and were set free on the cross where Jesus died."

-JS GSN during personal prayer

...may my old self die on the cross...

소중한 친구가 있어요...

대학교 와서 처음 사귄...

나에게 많은걸 알려주고 도와준...

누구와도 바꾸고 싶지 않은 그런 소중한 친구가 있어요...

그런데 얼마전 아버지께서 교통사고로 돌아가셨데요...

아버지라는 존재가 맏딸인 그 친구에게 얼마나 중요한지...

얼마나 그 친구 어깨가 무거워 지는지...

너무 잘 알지만 해줄수 있는 말이 없었어요...

"미안해... 힘내" 라는 말밖엔 해줄말이 없었어요...

마음이 너무 무겁네요...

지금도 이 말 밖엔 해줄말이 없어요...

"힘내... 지혜야...!"

Nehemiah 1

3 The wall of [San Diego] is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire.”

⁴ When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven. ⁵ Then I said:

“LORD, the God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments, ⁶ let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of [San Diego]. I confess the sins [of people of San Diego], including myself and my [friends], have committed against you. ⁷ We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

⁸ “Remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, ⁹ but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

¹⁰ “They are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand. ¹¹ Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favor in the presence of this man.”

wow. such a powerful prayer. God, may you be revealed in San Diego!

I am...

back in action. >:]

Valentine's Day

let's just say everyone, if not most, that I know (reason being KCCC, possibly...) would say this...

but hey, let's cheer up! it's valentine's day! yayyyy

and with that, I'll leave this short entry.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. (:

싸움 잘하는 방법 (대머리 독수리)

"자항풍! WOOHOO! 자항풍! 컴온! 뇌가 터져버리는거지" ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

쵝오다 진짜. ㅋㅋㅋ

suddenly today...

I realized that i really like the Simpsons.

I've always liked it, but today, I realized that I REALLY like it.

I don't know why it was today. haha

Super Bowl XLV 2011 Commercials

Ah, yes, it's that time of the year again...

where sports fans are ready to snuggle in their couch with their family and friends to watch some good football, tv ratings sky rocket, and marketers spend million dollars on a 30 second commercials.

HENCE, the best commercials of the year! i got them listed from 1~5, no particular order.

#1. Volkswagon's Beetle.

Cleverly done with bunch of insects, staying true to its name. Loved how that beetle started drifting and getting attentions and whatnot. great commercial.

#2. Volkswagon's Darthvader

Little kid darthvader uses his force to start a passat! ... of course, with a little help from his daddy.

#3. Coca Cola's Border

Ah, how Coca Cola never fails me. This commercial reminded me a lot about the 38th parallel in Korea. Gotta share the goods even if you're against the enemy! (:

#4. Bud Light's Dog sitter

Here we go! I don't really have much to say about this commercial. Not in a bad way. In a really good way. I really liked this commercial. haha

#5. Brisk's Eminem

Ah, one of my favorite rapper of all time. Still got them attitude and never fails to entertain. yeap, slim shady's still got some left. this was nice.

and of course, the best performance at the half time show, Black Eyed Peas showed what's up.

who's gonna top this next year? hahaha GG

happy spurs = happy david

yeap. meeting number 2, spurs take it again.

Spurs 89 - 88 Lakers

인연

피천득의 인연 이라는 짧은 글을 Korean class에서 읽었다...

주인공은 혼자 자기 자신과 아사코가 인연이라고 생각하면서 사랑에 빠진다.

나도 그러는게 아닐까?

나도 인연의 주인공처럼 혼자 인연을 만들어내고...

말도 되지 않는 이유를 만들어내 혼자 상상하고 있는게 아닐까?

사랑에 빠지는게 아니라 사랑을 만들어 가는게 아닐까?

우연히 마주치는 인연이 아닌 노력이 아닐까?

내가 그 사람을 보면서 그저 인연이라고 생각만 하고 있는건 아닐까?

good bye facebook

not permanently, but just for a short while...

i've been getting distracted, having too much thoughts in my head.

i need to pray instead of staring at pictures.

i need to pray instead of reading what's on the wall.

until i feel like i am ready, i will not return.

let's see how long this one takes until i return.

God, let me not focus on the things of this world, but You.